of season 47. your next hour of "cnn newsroom" starts right now. what usually takes place in weeks is done in 72 hours and will go to hospitals and home health care facilities. likely the first of many of these flights. >> exclusive to cnn. talking about a russian junior officer. he was part of the launch of the war inside of ukraine. now after a couple of weeks into the war this is where things changed for him saying in the end i gathered the strength, went to the commander to write a letter of resignation. are you confident that the u.s. can avoid a recession? >> we feel good. let's talk about the monkey pox. >> i would not be surprised to

see more cases in the upcoming days. >> i'm pamela brown in washington. you are live in "cnn newsroom." following several mayor stories this hour including new concerns over monkey pox after another suspected case in the united states. also tonight, baby formula given a military escort into the united states. how long will it last? and the nypd is searching for a suspect after a man was shot dead on the subway this morning. plus voters in four more states are set to head to the polls on tuesday. could they be on a midnight train to georgia? and pope frances says president biden should receive communion but other catholic leaders push back. the mixed message from the

church coming up. while many states deal with a rise in covid-19 infections there's another possible case of monkey pox in the united states. a broward county person is in isolation. monkey pox is mostly found in west and central africa. earlier this week a case was reported in massachusetts. that patient recently traveled to canada. doctors say the florida case is related to international travel. and there's another reported case in new york. white house covid-19 response coordinator told abc news monkey pox is not a mystery illness. >> i would not be surprised if we see a few more cases in the upcoming days but this is a virus we understand with vaccines and treatments against

it and spread very different. >> last hour i talked with dr. peter hotez in texas and he said the u.s. is more prepared to handle monkey pox than it was with covid-19. >> this is a virus that's not nearly as transmissible as covid-19. requires face to face intimate contact. tr transmissability is way down and has less severe disease than chickenpox we have the anti-viral drugs, three at least and vaccine in the stockpiled. this is not related to a bio

terrorist attack and much better prepared for this than coronavirus. >> according to the cdc there was outbreaks in colonies of monkeys kept for research. turning now to russia's war in ukraine. it is just after 2:00 a.m. in kyiv on the 89th day of the war. ukrainian president zelenskyy accusing russia of blocking the export of flood products. and he says many countries could face a food crisis if the sea ports are blocked. they have long earned the nickname bread basket of europe. russian forces came on to attack a city in the east. ukrainian officials said they managed to repel the attack. satellites have been a tool to record and reveal what russia

didn't want the world to see. the targeting of civilians. the bombardments and the atrocities. cnn's gary tuchman takes us inside a san francisco satellite that captured the horrors and realities of war. >> a picture from space. >> this is the port town of mariupol and the steel plant in the news is located here. >> reporter: this image from a satellite about 280 miles over earth. this company called planet has more than 200 satellites in orbit that resemble this one and this one displayed in the san francisco headquarters. the satellites can pinpoint just about any location and show it in great detail like this satellite image of a cemetery in mariupol leading to a conclusion by the stanford university military expert a client of planet.

>> up here you can see there's trees, tombstones, dots that show each plot for each person. here now this is fresh brown dirt and they have been using bulldozer that is we saw earlier to dig out the trenches. around just mariupol there are three mass graves and ready for 5,000 bodies or more. >> reporter: it's important because they add to what can be an incomplete picture. remember when the chernobyl nuclear plant was under attack? the satellite saw the images. >> a convoy of tanks and military vehicles coming through here. they set up bases here. they dug in to the radioactive soil and they dug trenches in here. >> reporter: and then there's another aspect to this war. the continuing destruction of

the agriculture sector of ukraine. something that's hard to capture trying to photograph from the ground. zoom it in. this is a couple weeks ago why you see a grain silo. it is an important agricultural country. see what happens a few days later. what happened here? >> there's a huge gravity bomb dropped here. it kind of concentric circle. it took out these four silos here as well as the grain storage here and then all this sort of light yellow spread out is wheat. >> the food security crisis is a crisis on a crisis. we will feel the effects all over the world in the next year or two. >> reporter: the clirnlt rangers the u.s. government and other governments and the media and universities and humanitarian

organizations. >> i have no doubt the data can and is used around the world and ukraine and well beyond the borders to support humanitarian efforts, reduce suffering and save lives. >> reporter: back to the most current images of mariupol we asked to zoom in and told at this time it is too sensitive to show on tv. >> we don't want to compromise the efforts. >> reporter: planet said the small satellites last three to five years in orkt and take millions of images every day. the larger don't take as many daily images but the resolution is high jer the company launches two to five large satellites a year. this is gary tuchman, cnn, in san francisco. and now a cnn exclusive. a junior officer in the russian

military says he is overwhelmed by shame and guilt for the unprovoked invasion of a peaceful country and risked it all by resigning the commission and walking away. cnn's suzanne malveaux is in ukraine with the story. suzanne? >> reporter: good evening, pam. exclusive to cnn, a russian junior officer who speaks that he is anonymous to protect the safety and the identity speaking to cnn saying he was a part of the unit february 22nd the troop build-up along the border with ukraine and that evening that they were order ds to give over the cell phones and lost communication with the world and ordered to paint the "zs" on the vehicles to symbolize the invasion and no idea that that was in fact the mission. the following day in crimea.

he didn't know they were going to move forward but on february 24th he says, yes, he was part of the launch of the war inside ukraine and said many comrades and himself did not understand the goal. he tells cnn, quoting here, we were not hammered with a ukrainian nazi rhetoric. many did not understand what this was all for and what we were doing here and the officer describing the drive and actually confronting locals saying here quoting, in geneseeing the locals we tensed up. some hid weapons ubds nooert the clothes and they fired. he told cnn he would hide his face from the ukrainians embarrassed out of shame and safety and didn't want them to see him on their land and said

the second or third day when russian forces came irnd fire attack and and he was in a state of aftershock and an i'm couples into the war things changed for him saying he got a radio receiver and got a look into the news here saying that's how i learned that shops are closing in russia and the economy is collapsing. i felt guilty and more guilty because we came to ukraine. and then he concludes, pam, in the end i gathered the strength, went to write a letter of resignation. he said there could be a criminal case. that rejection is betrayal. i stood my ground. pam, he went off. he is now back home with his family in terms of the future he says he doesn't know and he is

just glad to be home. pam? >> wow. incredible reporting. thank you. on this sunday, two american families, all they can do is wait and hope their loved ones are jailed abroad. i'll talk to both families, up knicks. it is trumper haves is pence backing different candidates in georgia and one day before the polls open trump's candidate has a difficult road ahead. we'll be right back. bipolar depression. it made me feel trapped in a fog. this is art inspired by real stories of bipolar depression. i justouldn't find my way out of it. the lows of bipolar depression can take you to a darklace. latuda could make a real difference

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and asking the public for help to find the killer. it is a fascinating story of struggle, survival and luck and it is a cnn exclusive. trevor reed, an american freed after more than two years in a russian prison talks to jake tapper. >> so i was too worried about who was in the cell with me to sleep. >> you thought they might kill you? >> yeah. i thought that was a possibility. >> the exclusive "finally home" at 8:00 eastern after this program. you will not want to miss that. there are shared emotions between reed and the families with other americans jailed abroad. harrison lee's son is being jailed. thank you for joining. you have a relative, your

father, detained overseas in shanghai on state security charges. why do you say that those charges are politically motivated? >> sure. so many father is an ordinary american. he came to the quite in 1989 with $200 in his pocket. he started to work in food service and an ordinary american. he ran a one-man business owner. he's not a multimillionaire. an ordinary person. you can imagine the shock when suddenly in september of 2016 he was taken from us and the charging of espionage levied against him are 100% politically motivated. these are the exact same charges used to detain others.

the state secrets that my father is alleged to have stolen is information that can be freely found on the internet. that illustrates that in indeed the charges are the false. the u.n. working group ruled it to be arbitrary and the u.s. government is taking up the case. and while i'm grateful it has not been enough. i haven't seen my father in six years now. i don't know how much longer it will be. this administration is workinging hard but not hard enough and need to get together, putt together an interagency effort and iterate solutions because i don't think there's a real plan to get him out. it is six years. i don't know the holdup. i want my dad home.

>> tell us more about the communications you have had with the u.s. government. >> certainly it is varied. i'm grateful to be in touch with them on a weekly basis and takes a village to resolve the cases. that's the reality of the situation. i get the sense that there's different government agencies to work together to get this done and seems like the process taken months and months at each step and not acceptable. while this is happening you have innocent americans being tortured, wrongfully held without communication. my father's only means of talking to the world are the seven-minute calls and makes it clear he can't tell us the full extent of what has happened in

prison. he is diagnosed with high blood pressure and has had a stroke. he is crammed into a cell and shanghai is hot and humid and no climate control in the cell. they need to place a greater prior te and number one thing to do is to meet with the families that he did with an other families and including the wrongfully detained americans in china. we are waiting to meet with the president but had no luck to doing so. >> what do you think the u.s. government should do? should they be payingi ransoms? a prisoner exchange? if your dad could watch this now what would you say to him? >> china i'm always told is a complex country with these kinds of cases and the solutions that

have worked in the past that they vary and i think there's not a consistent strategy so i leave it in the hands of the government experts but right now they need to take an action and that's where we're at with my father. to help with that senior administration officials like president biden and national security adviser sullivan that promised a call more than five months ago that hasn't talked to the families we want to talk to him to present the side of the story to help come up with a plan. we want to help them come up with a plan. >> what is your message to your dad? >> dad, i am just so impressed by how strong and resilient you have been through six years of

chinese prison. i don't want to know what's happened to you. i know that you have suffered immensely for a crime you did not commit. i know that they want to work hard in the u.s. government but it is prioritization. i will not give up until you are home in new york because to do otherwise would not be right. >> harrison li, thank you. your father is fortunate to have you fighting for him. thank you for joining the show. >> thank you. former u.s. marine reed joins jake tapper. "finally home "airs at 8:00 eastern here on cnn. prevailing wisdom is that democrats face a difficult battle in this year's midterm election but could things get worse for them?

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welcome back. it is just about 7:30 p.m. eastern time here. you are taking a live look at capitol hill. it was raining but now it looks like the rain is clearing away. hopefully things cooled down out there. it's been hot in washington, d.c. we are now just two days away from a high-stakes primary in georgia. incumbent governor kemp appears

poised to deal trump a defeat. >> really what matters is georgians. i've been doing that the whole time. not concerned with what other people that don't live in the state or the national news media might think. i put hard working georgians first. >> let's discuss with allison stewart who's a strategist and maria cardona is a cnn commentator at a strategist. alice, trump is going to make a final push for perdue tomorrow and no upcoming in-person events with perdue and how embarrassing would a kemp win be for trump? >> very. look. i'm from georgia.

born and raised there. governor kemp did a tremendous job for the people of georgia and seeing poll numbers around 60% and focused on keeping jobs and keeping the economy open throughout covid and accountable to the people of georgia and why he is doing so well and pefr due focused on carrying donald trump's water and the last election and a rigged election. when you are a one-trick pony you need to make sure that the trick is correct. the election was free and fair. governor kemp is going to be in a good spot on tuesday because he is responsive to the people. >> kemp is pivoting, right? releasing ads attacking stacey abrams on covid politics in particular. >> i actually believe that you should tell people what they should do. >> abrams would have made us on

california and new york. businesses closed. people laid off. hypocrisy. >> how effective do you think this message will be in the general and how should abrams respond? >> i think that stacey abrams is salivating to get this general election campaign started because this will be a matchup and one of most incredible things that abrams is able to do since the last time she ran for governor is mobilize and excite the democratic party base, expand new voters coming in. the work she did is frankly responsible a lot of it for why democrats won the two senate seats in georgia in 2020. her organization fair fight really did so much to bring in new voters. people who had never voted

before that see what an extreme party the republican paefrt is including kemp because remember from the voting standpoint he wants to take away the right to vote. abortion rights is a huge mobilization tool for democrats and georgia has one of the worst laws that will be on the books so i think stacey abrams is in a fantastic position to re-up the fight and get the new voters into mobilization and getting them excited about the things that republicans represent that they don't believe are right for georgia and will be in a great position to beat him november. >> a chance to respond, alice? >> biggest downfall that abrams has is she is a progressive democrat and democrat warnock

progressive on the issues and doesn't fit with the people of georgia. president biden with approval ratings of 40% is a drag on anyone and that's a biggest downfall and governor kemp is response i to the people and kept the economy going and that's what the people want to see. more of what they have had. >> i want your take because according to politico nancy pelosi received communion today and this week a conservative archbishop in the hometown said she is barred. you are not to present yourself for holy communion and you are not to be admitted until you publicly repudiate and confess.

so you're a catholic and a democrat. what do you make of this story? >> judge not lest ye be judged. the holy father pontificates the pope said that bishops should not be politicians. they should be pastors. this is incredibly misguided on behalf of the boish opinions. they represent not what the majority of catholics believe but an extreme conservative political view that they are using their incredibly powerful perch to dispense of that view and i think it is completely wrong headed of them. this is a reason why people are leaving the catholic church in droves and hoping that better minds within the vatican prevail

and the one coming from pope frances. where he focuses on exactly what the catholic church should be doing in reflecting the teachings of jesus christ. the b bishops weaponize that ani think it's completely wrong to do that. >> alice? >> this is a long time coming and should have happened. this is not a conservative archbishop. this is universal -- >> it is absolutely. >> this is the catholic faith. they have said that abortion is a sin. pope frances refers to abortion in extremely horrible terms calling it murder. the catholic church needs to stand up. you can't pick and choose which

tenets you believe in. it is part of the big picture of being a catholic. this is universal catholic teaching. >> the most -- i'm sorry. i'm sorry, alice. the most important part of being a catholic, the doctrine says that you are responsible for your own morality, your own moral code. you have to act depending on the moral compass says. that is up to nobody else. that is why this -- why you go to confession. if you believe you have sinned you go to confession and how you are back into the grace of god and then able to take holy communion. that is no one's decision except for the person up and decides to take holy communion. interestingly enough that decision is as personal to whoever wants to decide to take

holy communion as the decision to term natd a pregnancy is to a woman. it is that personal why. if those bishops believe whoever is taking communion is sinning believing in abortion rights that is up to that person and god and jesus if they believe that person will burn in hell it is up to that person. that is doctrine of the catholic church. you are responsible and that is how you should act and completely wrong headed. they are weaponizing communion and a reason why the catholic church is losing people in droves. >> we are running out of time but, alice, do you think then that the bishop, the georgetown

church where nancy pelosi received communion was wrong to then allow her to have communion? i want to better understand your perspective. >> i do. the catholic tenets believe and say that abortion is sin and follows suit that having communion should not be able to participate in communion. i don't understand how catholics pick and choose which tenets to follow and all i can do is state as this archbishop did very clearly and succinctly. it is not a pro-life propaganda or a conservative archbishop. it is universal church teachings. the people who are supporters of

this like nancy pelosi should not participate in communion. >> alice, the pope frances does not believe with these archbishops. >> okay. >> sorry. >> thank you. >> i appreciate passion you both have on the issue. where nancy pelosi went to receive communion where joe biden goes to receive communion. alice and maria, thank you. >> thank you. >> thank you so much. you're in the "cnn newsroom." john fetterman was released from the hospital today. he could face a much tougher challenge in the general election. we'll have the very latest up next.

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implanted and then today seen walking in a video posted by his wife giselle. take a look. now, he also put a statement today saying he hopes to return to the campaign trail soon. he said i feel great but i'm going to continue to rest and recover. i am going to take the time i need now to rest and get to 100% so i can go full speed soon and flip this seat blue. he doesn't know the republican opponent because the gop primary race is too close to call. votes are still being counted. as of right now mehmet oz leads david mccormick narrowly but the consensus is that this is almost

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1 million and counting. that's how many people have died from covid-19 in the u.s. since the pandemic began, and one study finds that each of those deaths affects as many as nine people. a new book called "the modern loss handbook" is an interactive guide for moving through grief and building resilience. author rebecca sofer lost her mother in a car crash 16 years ago. four years later her father died suddenly, and after struggling to manage her own grief, she co-founded her own online community to help others through the process. rebecca joins me now. hi, rebecca. you know, with you were talking in the brain. you said i wish i didn't have to write a book like this. i wish i didn't have to go through that experience and you did, and you're writing this book to help others. so many people have gone through grief, particularly in the last couple of years.

1 million americans lost to covid-19. how do you think this collective grief has impacted us? >> oh, my gosh, well, first of all, pamela, thank you so much for having me and recognizing the importance of talking about this stuff because it's so important. like you said, you know, we just hit the million-death mark from covid, you know, on the official books, right? and i think they are saying that it's probably up to 200,000 higher than that, so maybe 1.2 million people in this country have died from covid alone over the last couple of years. there's something called a bereavement multiplier which suggests every death from covid nine poem are directly grieving that death so basic math you have 9 million people officially in this country alone grieving a covid death, not to mention all the other grief that's out there due to death loss. over the last two years we've had loss of identities, loss of jobs, loss of coping mechanisms and the ability, to you know, access roles that we were used

to having and the addition of other roles, you know, the loss of our ability to go to funerals and hug people. we've had so much collective loss, you know, mass shootings, political divisiveness, the grief is real right now. >> and a lot of people compare grief to fighting a battle. you compare it to of all things crabs. why are crabs a better metaphor? >> yes. i always ask people to bear with me for the first like four seconds of that explanation because i think that in our culture we really love fixing things. we like telling people that if you fight hard enough or, you know, you're determined enough, you grit your teeth enough, pull yourself up by your emotional boot straps, you can vanquish the aggressor, and the aggressor can be serious illness. it can be death or grief. it can be anything really hard, but that's just -- i think we both know. that's just not the way it works. you can fight as hard as you can, but you're still going to

deal with tough things, and the more you try to power your way through something, you're just not going to be acknowledging the fact that it's really hard. you're going to just like be putting on blinders and not realizing that there are a lot of different supports that you can be getting for yourself that can accompany you along the way that can make you feel more acknowledged and make you feel like you're healing better and building more coping mechanisms, building your resilience so i'm all for crabs. they pivot every which way. their only job is to kind of like hang on to the sand at the bottom of the ocean and shifting tides that shift without warning, you know. they have to pivot. they have to be resilient. they are very wonky. i mean, we've all seen a crab on the sand, they look weird. they walk sideways and forwards. they don't care. thvr they don't care that they are awkward and weird and are fumbling their way through it. they just do it. they get it done, and that's what i like to compare grief to. there's no winning or losing in

grief. there's just doing and sometimes you say that didn't work well for me. i'm just going to do it again. that's the only way. it's like keep going. >> yeah. i've learned from my own personal experience the onlyay over it is through it, and you never really get over it per se especially like in our case we both lost our moms, but as someone said to me, it's like a big black cloud, and it rains and it rains and it irans, and it starts raining harder just when you feel like you can't take it anymore. it keeps range and then one day it -- it clears out, right, and you're doing a little bit better and you feel like you can move forward a little bit more and the fact that you can't like rush through it is so important because you do. you have to -- unfortunately you have to experience it in order to get over it, and i think your book is going to help a lot of people. >> thank you so much, you're right. the only way out is through, and

sometimes the through looks like a major storm ten years down the line. i mean, the waves come and then they go and that's just grief because grief is a part of life, and i want people to understand that it's a very normal part of life, that some of us are going to need extra support, extra help and we should get that help, but many of us are going to be moving through this in ways that absolutely feel painful, but it's going to feel a lot more painful if we can't talk about it. >> there's no one size fits all. rebecca, thank you so much and thank you for joining me this evening. i'm pamela brown. the cnn special report "finally home, the trevor reed intetervi" is next.

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he was a marine who had been stationed in hot spots around the world, but it was not until he went on vacation in moscow that veteran trevor reed, then only 28 years old, was thrust into the most dangerous experience of his life. i'm jake tap, and this hour you will hear trevor reed for the first time describing it all. a kafka-esque trial, his defiance, his struggles, and you'll hear from his family who fought to get hi