where am i, all this, i'm just laughing, like are you all fucking nuts there or something, i mean they sit and really watch every person, how many of these thousands of people are there who watch another ten tens of thousands of other people, i we just kind of thought that this is just a threat not only to us, but also to the people who gather at our concerts, so we decided to end this story, i don't want to be in your seas, what am i going to do right? i have a war, a fight, my own cross, i have my own, please, go away, you make me weaker on my way, and i cannot be saved, by any means.

i did not ask, do not make fools and whiners, narcissistic credit critics fall in love with you, without a doubt without hysterics, leave the shore, abandon unloved husbands , unhappy wives, run to the seas with fish and koria, raise a sail, i will never stay here.

in our family this topic was never touched upon and i never thought about my roots like this, i understood that i was armenian, i always said this, i always armenian, no, half, half azerbaijani, yeah, yeah, that is, i knew this unusual story of my family, but no matter how deeply i delved into it , i never, probably, for the first time i came into contact with understanding what my blood is, it was in march of this last year. when we left for yerevan, there was such delight, i felt like i was in the cartoon madagascar, a zebra was among zebras. i had never been to yerevan and when i suddenly arrived there, i suddenly realized that i exist, where i am from, i have pakistani armenian, when the war happened, he could never come home again in his life, actually , yes, armenia-azerbaijan, and my mother is azerbaijani, muslims and christians, my father baptized me, i am christian. i think

that this was a difficult topic for my family, they did not want to touch on it, so i did not have either language, and we generally spoke very little about this topic, my father is from karabakh, i found this out just now, when i was getting ready to go, i began to tell my mother that i was going to go to yerevan, and my mother kept telling me vera, never say anywhere that your mother is azerbaijani, because you never know what could happen, well, naturally. you understand that when i come to yerevan, the first thing i say is that my mother is azerbaijani and my father is armenian, and you know what they say to me, how many such marriages there are, how many friends we really have, how scary it is that everything happened like this, then i find out that in fact this is the history of my family, that in fact my father was from karabakh and that they had already grown up in baku, but in general, like, the last name , the family, their house was there and some tragedy, i only now understand what a tragedy it was, the war happened and my dad never again there... for 30

years of his life he could not be at his mother's grave, he could never again go to baku, it's like they will tell me now that i will never again be able to go to russia, it will be the most terrible tragedy for me, and imagine how long i actually lived inside such a story and did not know anything about it, because they do not talk about it, i am so sorry about what is happening to armenia , how unnoticed... this country, and this conflict, and these victims, and these deaths, this country is simply constantly accompanied by tragedy, death, i don’t know more harmless, more open, more peace-loving people who have never been inclined to conquer someone else’s, they have always protected their own, while accepting others, i don’t know another so accepting of others, open to them, when i first came to yerevan, it was march, it was just the beginning of military action, and - at the border it was clear that very

many russians are going, why? and i heard two armenian women behind my back saying, why didn't they talk about it like that when it happened here, why did everyone keep quiet and what's more... turkey and azerbaijan still haven't officially recognized the genocide as genocide, that is, they don't call it genocide, they recognize the victims, but they haven't recognized the victims yet, but they don't call it genocide, remember,

you talked about responsibility, you talked about how you 're not ready to admit that you're part of the collective guilt, i get it, that we are generally very afraid of this word responsibility and especially... for such large-scale painful events, because it seems to us that if i say that i am responsible, it means i am guilty, it means i can be punished , but i am not guilty, it is not my fault that putin declared war, i did not agree with this, in fact these are different concepts, that is, guilt, yes, you can be punished for it, war criminals will be punished, responsibility - this means that i am part of this cause, it means i could influence something, if you ask, for what from... you vera since 18 years old i did not go to elections, and i was not interested in it as much as i could have been interested, i was only able to start going to rallies there at i don’t know 30 years old to understand that this is not a waste of time, here is my responsibility, girl vera, if you put her in front of

my friend nastya klimenko in kiev and ask: did you vera cause damage to nastya, and i will say, of course, i did not cause any damage, we only have great support, love for each other, but if they tell me now: that here as a collective responsibility, faith, you are a representative of your country, you are a citizen of your country, and i will say: forgive me, please, nastya, for the damage that we have caused, we need to make sure that we fix it, what can we do, what houses should we rebuild, how much should we compensate, if it can be compensated at all, how many books should we write about it, and i am not afraid, that is, it does not seem to me that now - someone can throw a stone at me as a person, that someone can do something to me, this division of guilt and... responsibility, if we can explain this, convey it to each person, then it will be easier for us to accept it, i will tell my children about what a political system is, about the fact that in fact you choose this government, that in fact you have chosen someone who will correspond to

your ideas, this is what i will do, this is what, what conclusions did you make after your country became an aggressor, and you could not do anything about it, as citizens of your country, i know. i can't admit to a guy that i listen to katz, in the evenings i listen to katz, it helps me relax, almost like dancing, just like, just like dancing. why did i ask on the street about the song novosti? i remember that after it there was also some very important song, but the main thing is that when you told me that you don't know how you're going to sing it, the first time, how you're going to finish it, whether you'll even be able to finish it to the end, you finish it to the end, how many minutes

of complete silence, it's completely obvious that people, first of all, understood everything, well, they knew everything, understood everything, and most importantly, understood that applause would be inappropriate now. installations, i read the news, i don’t know, you know, i then felt directly that we were now living this song together with them, and we seemed to be saying it all together, that is, it was not their tribute to me to be silent and not to interrupt with applause, it was our shared experience, i said that i don’t know how i will sing, and really in the middle of the song i feel that i have these... tears, it was very important for me, and i felt in this, how the audience energetically held me, that i didn’t lose my voice, it was a very strong moment, we performed this song for the first time, and it’s very important to me that it happened like this, we were together, it was our minute of silence, it was our

tragedy that we experienced during this song, and from the explosion on every street, i burn with pain and shame, i do things, i say goodbye to the boy, i try to make it at least a little meaningful, i turn on the music, everyone dances, i defend myself so much when you attack.

naturally, it is impossible not to ask about how men work in a team that they lead. normally in general, well, that is, there are places where she openly fucks up, as if we talk about it, well, and we accept her simply as a person, we are in this process in interaction, this is generally normal, i feel comfortable with her, well, sometimes she of course pisses me off, i want to kill, well, no matter how i hide these emotions, everything is ok with this, these are just moments, so here, and as a person, as a friend, i love her, i respect, i appreciate, and i kind of worry about her safety, about everything, but... we are very close, we just spend so much time together and spent and, well, you know, in short,

how can you measure it, well for me, but this is probably also not new, and is it comfortable to be silent with a person or not, being in the same room, when you are in the same room there for 3 weeks, a month and still be silent comfortably, there are no questions at all, i once had a very strong eating disorder, it lasted 16 years, bulimia in a very severe form, and i never talked about it, it was my fear, shame and... you know how open i am in what i say, and it was my black hole, which i thought, if someone finds out one day, then everything, everything is over, my biggest discovery was once that our body, its shape, its size, absolutely does not really require any effort from us, and that this is all a huge marketing ploy about the fact that you need to control yourself, your body, your weight, your sport, your movement for... to look good and be good somehow, which is really just the ability to listen to yourself, your body tells you everything it needs,

when it needs to drink, when it needs to eat, when it needs sweets, when it needs savory, when it needs solitude or privacy or a hug, it tells you everything, and if you learn to listen to it, you can be in the body in which you can most effectively live this life, and you observe yourself as with your child, you go for a walk and you do not take something, some i'll buy a bun on the way? you know that your child likes this kind of juice, that's why he sleeps well, that's why you start interacting with him like this, because it's very important to you how he feels, it affects your whole life, how your child feels, and you start treating yourself the same way, it's very important for me to keep myself in the best condition in any situation, in order for a person to give such advice, he must feel that he has the right to do so, yeah, that is, at some point you... apparently i said to myself, yes, i can share this, this information with people, and moreover, i can advise them on something,

recommend something, when did this happen, what did you feel in yourself? then there was not much information about eating disorders , i had to study a lot in order to understand what to do with myself, and it became effective, and i discovered such knowledge, such skills, such an understanding of myself, that i wanted to approach every person and shout about it and tell, and i started to share my story on instagram, just and i was horrified by how many people said that they understood what i was talking about, actually, my audience asked me, vera, then make a course, we are ready to pay you so that you tell us about it, i had no claims initially on this, i was quite careful about this topic, and it became so interesting to me that while there was covid, i received a professional retraining program, received a certificate, i'm still the same...

the easiest way to manipulate a person is to make him feel ashamed of himself, then you can, you know, no need for laws, no rules, nothing, he himself will not say anything anymore, will not ask anything, he becomes the most controllable puppet that one can be, to make a person think that something is completely wrong with him, with his desires, with his aspirations, with his thoughts, he is completely different, at this moment

we simply close the personality, which it stops trying, doing, developing, because it always feels, that she at all... nobody wants you to become free, so that you feel entitled, so that you feel that you have a place in this world, that your questions are normal, therefore our entire system and the education system, the system of interaction with people, it is based on maintaining this toxic shame in you, so that it burns with all its might, then it is wonderful, very convenient with you, as we are accustomed to, that the capital of russian migration of that first russian emigration is paris. but we forget that for quite a long time and many, actually artists, poets lived in berlin, in particular, here we are now near the house where marina tsvetaeva lived, here besides her lived ilya orenburg, who rented a room from her, and here a little later lived boris pasternak, in the same house, for some time, i remembered that well, you talked

about this at the concert, i remembered that you recorded a song for the album. roma is amazing, and he is an amazing historian, in our short acquaintance with him, here 30 minutes on zoom, he begins to tell us the history of russian migration, about how many waves there were, that in fact now there is almost a sixth wave of immigration, how often all this happened, suddenly we understand how close it is to what is happening now, how much we are simply repeating the same steps, and it became somehow so close to us that we could not disagree. i found this poem by lidya chervinskaya, i really liked it, play for me, something old, yes, if there is hell or heaven, it is such a trifle, so artem makes music here, and i i start singing it, suddenly this song gains

some kind of power, you know, these lines, they were waiting for music, the city, the lights, the fog... but, still, we will die, there is a dark sofa in the room, so it is better to wake up together, they had to wait 100 years for their music, their artyom and my voice so that then, that is, this song was created by three people, one of them waited 100 years, at a concert, we just performed it together with the audience, there in the song it is arranged so that... there are backing vocals, this constant whisper of mine, it's so important now, which i can't portray myself at a concert, and i started asking the audience to do it, and it's some kind of amazing moment of the concert, amazing unity, city lights fog, we're going to die anyway, the room has a dark sofa,

so it's better to stay in yours. city lights fog, we're going to die anyway, the room has a dark sofa, so it's better to stay in yours, you know what the matter is, i really am, i really am happy now, that is , i need, it's simple , i need to not be myself, i need to be... someone else, i need to be ashamed of the fact that i really am like this, you know, no matter what happens, they always told me about the inappropriateness of my behavior, when ilya was sitting, and i was dancing at home, they told me, how can you, but i had to do something with myself in order to, and then the next day, i sat for 5 hours in a special detention center, there are no chairs, no tables, nothing, so

you just stand for 5 hours, and i began to carry a folding chair with me there, so we chose which one, a comfortable folding chair, so i came there, i put it on and sat, read, or worked on the computer, and that was all, i joked like, look at my boyfriend, what interesting dates he arranges for me, agonizing expectations, and this is my way of experiencing what is happening to me, and i have never smiled in my life, neither on instagram nor anywhere else, when i did not want to do it, it’s just that apparently, in volume it seems that there is always more joy, although there were... a lot of tears, and i never hid them, and even when i thought, probably, they don’t show such a thing, i thought, well, this is unfair, because right now i really feel like i can’t do anything, and i went out and talked about it.

so, wait, i’ll take off my boots, because they’re restricting my freedom, the last thing i need is boots, damn it, restricting my freedom, right? oh, how good, how good it suddenly became, guys, pay attention to how you dance, in reality, we have nothing in this life except our bodies, that is, we live everything only with this body of ours, pay attention to what allows you to do the body, because i began to observe how i dance, i realized that i do a lot of movements, but it is very difficult for me to go beyond the perimeter that i have designated for myself,

and i realized that all this time i live like this, it was very difficult for me to go out to understand that i can be here, i can be here, there is a place for me everywhere, pay attention to what percentage of your body allows you to live, dance reflects the most, because it is ... movement, just look, you like me, i want you to like me, again, but all in vain, what am i doing here again i do at your place, without a push i like you. i want you to like me again, but all in vain, what am i doing here again i do at your place, without a push, you like me,

i want you to like me again, but all without a push, who am i doing, i do it all at your place, all alone, i like you, i want you to like me, i want you to like me.

anthony is never at home, he always needs to be with people. latest news: supreme court takes steps to combat wave of juvenile crime in naples. prisoners, you are always with us! us! a kilometer away from anthony always with from the republic square there is a district called kont. called informal buildings in the very center of yerevan. so informal that the city authorities can only estimate the number of people living here approximately: 4-5 people, the powerful inhabitants of the megapolis avoid this district, and we will tell you now

why you came, well, now we will talk about this, you have been sitting in captivity for the third month and do not know at all what we have in russia happens, your relatives found you with the help of the i want to find project, we invited you and today you will be able to ... call your relatives and friends, some of you were given letters and photos, you will be called in the queue, we lived in lithuania, dad, mom and i, our house was big, the war began, a truck arrived, get ready for the car, they took us, she wakes up at the station in lithuanian speaks loudly so that the whole house can hear.

i began my work at radio liberty in january 2020. i came here a long time ago, more than 10 years ago, when the tv channel was just being launched. 2016. i worked here for one year, went to los angeles for a while and came back. having started working with prazia two days before the start of a full-scale tuesday, it turned out that our editors praised the decision to prepare for any scenario, for us the priority was to continue moving, continue to live the ability to move forward, especially if a crisis situation arises, i was praised for the decision that the

majority of the team was going to lviv, singing...

it seemed to me that this was a constant downturn, from today, tomorrow will be different, i believe that there will be an international court, on which one will sit putin and all his assistants will be punished for the evil they committed against people. and cruelty, which is not subject to justification, which is not subject to statute of limitations, if the west closes its borders, these boys will hate us when they grow up.

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