Want to say as well what if someone not necessarily went beyond the abyss but due to living a certain way over long durations of causal time went from extremist, radical and violent to reject these forms not necessarily morally or even rationally but due to an awareness of them. And then full knowing their futility creates causal forms that were Sinister or Sinister-Numinious more aptly? They could have aeonic goals or dialectical goals. However primarily I see aeonics as futile maybe not dialectic to keep things balanced in the world. Yet why should we be concerned with human evolution upwards when most humans aren't even caring about it themselves? This "for the greater good" not individual good needs to be re evaluated.

Would I die or spend decades in prison to save the human race or white race? No I wouldn't because none of them would do the same for me. Crime, NS, extremism etc were just a stage for me.

Now it's just building something else entirely in a sense Aeonic but I don't like to use that word.

I just find it dull to be say above time I've lived as a monk it offered me no reward. Nor does extremism. However it is quite exciting and exeatic. Yet utterly pointless in the cosmic scale of things.

Primarily my own case I had empathy in an extreme amount as a child and such. And literally got beaten out of me. So I had to become cold as steel. Merciless. It's not my natural state. My natural state is being empathetic and caring. Despite my fiery temper.

So honestly it's no use to me to not be Sinister. It'd be a reversion back to what I was originally. Which is curious as I am reverting back to that state.

And it truly does make you aware beyond aware.

As time permits of course. I primarily agree here that Myatt/Long put too much emphasis on women and finding a suitable lover etc. And there is an element of fetishism for Lesbianism. I have never found women to be particularly interested in the O9A -- off and on somewhat sure but only in a cursory way. However, nothing is sacrosanct you know. There's no right or wrong way and never was. I've followed the 7fw without taking any sort of "occult" Aryan/lesbian waifu or forming a Satanic temple. Both seems like myths in context of being O9A. Moult did however perhaps form his own Satanic temple as such. Regardless, I am a lonewolf 7fw type.

Primarily I identify as "Luciferian" but that's just a term I'm my ownself you know. No one quite like me.

https://archive.org/details/introduction-to-the-anti-ethics-of-gnostic-fascism-on-the-original-nazarene-dist

or

https://www.scribd.com/document/566686227/Introduction-to-the-Anti-Ethics-of-Gnostic-Fascism-on-the-Original-Nazarene-Distortion-A-Sinister-Numinous-Dialectical-Nietzschean-Antinomian-Appro

Thank you all. I hope you enjoy it.