you know, maya angelou has this beautiful phrase that i've adopted as my own now, that when we know better, we do better, and, you know, we're all a work in progress, and i'm hoping that you will find the peace because you have lived this amazing external life that from the outside--can you bring a kleenex, dean?--from the outside looking in, you know, when we're in our worlds, you know, even i, who've lived a pretty big life, i look at your world and think, "god, i want to do that. i want a party like that. i want to do that," but you have cultivated a fantastic external world and obviously haven't spent as much time on the internal as you need to, and that's what life is really about, having the internal be as strong as what the external looks like. >> i think that's what--when the word "rehabilitation," people, like, you know, kind of kick their heels up at it, but what i did love about it and willthat i got to spend a month just working on myself, which the 15 years prior up until that, i had never had a month to work on myself, and it felt good. it's like a maintenance. you have to ke