>> dylan: there he is. >> sharon: here' s your son. >> dylan: ohh. >> sharon: [ chuckles ] >> dylan: hi. >> sharon: hi! >> dylan: faith, how are you doing? >> faith: good! i watched sully wake up. >> dylan: oh. you did? well, i bet he enjoyed that. what are you doing? there -- there' s the smile right there? did you have a good day today? >> faith: sage wanted to see the baby. >> dylan: she did? well, i' like to see you, too. you want to hold him? >> sage: [ chuckles ] >> dylan: yeah? is that a "yeah"? >> sage: yeah. >> dylan: okay. >> sage: [ laughs ] >> dylan: here you go. there he is. look at that. >> sage: ohh. yes. hi! >> summer: so, that' s it. you' ve seen the whole place. >> natalie: nice place. your family must have hooked you up. >> summer: what do you mean? >> natalie: you can' t pay for a place like this with babysitting money. >> summer: does it matter? >> natalie: not at all. who' s the guy? >> summer: that' s kyle -- my boyfriend. >> natalie: i' m sure he' s over here constantly. get victor on the phone. >> summer: why -- you automatically assume you' re gonna hate my

what did patty want to warn you about, dylan? >> dylan: i don't know. i don't know -- probably who dr. anderson really was. >> sage: no, because she would have just said that to you. >> dylan: we don't know why patty does anything. paul thinks that it was something that she might have made up in her head. >> sage: do you think that? there's no reason to keep digging up the past. it's not gonna fix anything, okay? you and sharon are out of dr. anderson's reach. you're both safe, and nick and i are very grateful. >> sage: yeah. i'm grateful for that, too. >> dylan: look, when it comes down to it, we know everything that really matters. >> sage: yeah. yeah. i can just hang on to that, then. >> dylan: well, and nick. >> nick: [ sighs ] how you doing? >> sage: hey, you. i'm -- i'm, uh, feeling better because of dylan. i just think it's time to move on and get back to our life. >> nick: yeah. it's a good life. i promise. i mean, it's not the one we expected, but it's gonna work out. >> sage: yeah, it is. >> next on " the young and the restless" ... >> billy:

dylan drew hearts. dylan wrote about his search for true love. eric when he does refer to girls, his fantasy is raping them. >> reporter: in their senior year, eight months before columbine, the two boys spent they liked violent movies and making little movies of their own. trying on what it's like to be tough guys. eric is smooth. >> i think we might have to get some more weaponry. >> reporter: dylan stumbles. >> it's a good thing we uh -- we ordered those radio [ bleep ] -- >> reporter: the camera shuts down. eric writes, everyone is always making fun of me because of how i look, how weak i am. guns, i need guns. dylans and for one too. >> and i had told him no. >> reporter: sue klebold said she used to look through his room during his junior year, but by his senior year she decided to respect his privacy with distance and regret she now says how wrong that decision was. >> would you ransack his room now? >> i would. i'd do it as if his very life was depending on it. and i would do it with love. >> reporter: the boys were already getting their

now, dylan drew hearts. dylan wrote about his search for true love. eric, when he does refer to girls, is his fantasies of raping them. >> someone who really is psychopathic is incredibly charming, they're manipulative. they are engaging. >> reporter: eric writes about his ease, going back and forth in a double life. here he's in court after the arrest on the van incident talking to the magistrate with great respect. get? >> "a"s and "b"s, your honor. >> what's your curfew? >> 10:00 on weekends and 6:00 on weekdays. >> reporter: the court sentences the boys with leniency. a year of counseling and community service. sue klebold has been told by another mother that eric harris is prone to angry, terrifying outbursts, but klebold thinks it's an overreaction because around her eric is so polite. and so, like many other boys, they play video games like "doom." they both like violent movies and making little movies of their own. trying on what it's like to be tough guys. in this one, pretending to be heroic government agents, out to save the world. eric is

dylan did. it wasn't me." >> reporter: she says she begins a quest to learn about violence and what she missed. lessons in the book. >> i'm donating the money. i want to make sure that we -- i give the money to mental health organizations and suicide prevention. and i don't know what else i can do. but i felt that i had to do everything i could do. >> reporter: she talks to the parents of suicidally depressed kids about the way she wished she had probed and not dismissed, or tried to fix everything. >> you listen and you don't judge. and you don't react in terms of, "oh, my god, you can't think that. you can't possibly feel that way." >> reporter: dr. fritz says start by making time to sit in silences, open-ended questions. you don't need to have answers. >> how did that happen? you must have felt terrible when that happened. i would have felt terrible. >> reporter: would you ask, "do you feel suicidal?" >> absolutely. if a parent is worried about that, they should say that to -- they ask the ki

>> sharon: goodness. >> dylan: ohh. >> sharon: ohh. >> dylan: what's h hpening here? >> faith: well... >> dylan: being a handful? >> faith: yeah. he spit up on mommy twice already. >> dylan: he did? well, little man -- look at him. little man, i got a closet full of shirts. bring it on. >> sharon: paul. >> paul: hey, sharon. >> sharon: how are you doing? >> paul: i'm doing better now, seeing you, dylan, and the kids. >> sharon: i'm really sorry about what you and patty are dealing with. you know, she tried to help me when i was at fairview, and i just wish i'd realized it sooner. >> paul: that's okay. i wish for a lot of things, too. but you know what? knowing that dylan has you -- and i mean all of you -- to go

>> dylan: marisa. >> marisa: dylan. what is it? >> dylan: i got a few questions for you. >> marisa: in an official capacity? >> dylan: mm-hmm. i assume you heard noah's been arrested for the hit-and-run. >> marisa: i heard. >> dylan: anything you'd like to share about the accident? >> marisa: only that he's innocent. >> dylan: so you're not helping him cover? >> marisa: no. why? why would i? he didn't do it. explain this... surveillance video of you at a landfill up in dodge county the day after billy's accident? i mean, that's you right there, right? getting rid of a set of tires? >> adam: got to tell you, man, i don't know what to say. dad, you called the cops on your own grandson? >> victor: it had to be done. >> adam: no, no, you see, the thing is, it really didn't have to be done. >> victor: you're ignoring the bigger picture, son. noah needs to learn that his actions have repercussions, okay? until he learns that, i don't want him to be back at the inner circle. it's not safe. >> adam: okay, i get it. so, in other words, you'

one of dylan's friends has called, worried that dylan might be involved. he wasn't there for morning class and he wears a trench coat. tom races through the house hoping against hope to find that coat. >> you always think somebody's making a mistake. >> reporter: it's not there.e. >> my first thought was, dylan may be in danger. who are these people that are hurting people? >> reporter: she has to drive 26 miles tget home. thoughts racing. >> hyperventilating and trying to talk myself down. >> repr: she arrives home. it is official, her son dylan is believed to be one of the shooters, and the shooting may not be over yet. in thahat momentshe says a searing prayer no parent thinks they could ever pray. >> the police were there and the helicoers were going over. and i remember thinking, "if this is true, if dylan is really hurting people, he has to -- somehow, he has to be stopped." and that -- at that moment, i prayed that he would die. it stop. don't let him hurt anybody." >> reporter: and so her quest begins. she says, she goes back over every year of her

dylan on his way to the prom. can you see any signs that just three days later, he would participate in one of the worst school shootings in american history? his friend, eric harris, entered columbine high school with explosives and automatic weapons. by the time it was over, 14 students and one teacher were dead. 24 more were wounded. dylan and eric took their own lives. dylan and eric's murder-suicide left their families, their community and the world with profound questions we still struggle to answer. how could this happen? what was going on in the minds of these young men who killed? could anything have been done to stop it? dylan's mother, sue klebold, has been on a 17-year journey in search of answers. a long, painful quest leading to the publication of her book "a mother's reckoning." today, what sue klebold learned as she struggled to come to