yes, he went to paris, following the footsteps ofjean—paul sartre, in paris, going to hotels, reading his diaries, which he gave me... did you feel betrayed by that? no, and when you are a child you don't feel betrayed. also since my father was not a freudian father, a father that perhaps baudelaire would have hated oppressing his son, he always said, "i am your best friend," and in fact, my freudian father may be my brother who taught me things, who was stronger. my father always had fun with us and treated us as if — me and my brother — geniuses, never suppressed us. while, on the other hand, this other father was more attentive to the boy than my father. so your book raises this fascinating question about the way in which individuals develop, the balance between being taught and disciplined and finding your own path, your own identity, and individual personality. you seem to suggest that if the character in the book, cem, had had an active father, throughout his life, he might have been different and he might actually have struggled to find his own voice more. i wonder if you f